So yesterday morning I woke to the joyful sound of ringing. Not a nice ringing. Not even a phone ringing (which would be awesome as I have Jamie Lidell as my ringtone) but the annoying ringing you get after a concert. Its called Titanus apparantely. I don’t really care what its called, its annoying. But unfortunately I can’t even look at it with fondness like I would if it was caused my an amazing concert. That was last week.
No this was caused simply by a blocked ear. Now I don’t know about you but when I get this it changes the person I am. I am easily irritated and I am probably a bit more prone to losing my temper. I’m not really like that but when something like this happens to me I act like a spoiled kid.
And this got me thinking.
I can look at this as being the worst thing to ever happen to me like I did.
Or I can look at it as something that is mildy inconvienient and that can be easily treated.
When I look at it like that then it changes my outlook. In fact after 24 hours of not being able to hear out of my left ear I am actually pretty used to it now.
And it may be a bit of a cliche but I am starting to appreciate my hearing. On my way home from Belfast yesterday I listened to music and for a brief few seconds my ear completely cleared up. Can I tell you that the music has never sounded so good. I have been listening to Sleeping at Last pretty much non stop the past week but it sounded so so better for a few short seconds.
I was reading a blog post on Shellie R Warrens facebook blog in which she was taken ill with the flu last week and how this as she saw it was God’s way of “making her lay down.” Psalm 23v2 ESV. God started to heal her about something specific going one in her life at that time. God had something to do with her illness. Reading about how she saw this period and how it was one way that God gets our attention by knocking us for six inspired me.
Sometimes we go through things that don’t just cause us to stop and take stock but ‘make us lie down’. So I started seeing my ear problem like this. I started to wonder what was the purpose of this and I believe it was to talk to me about sin. To see what is necessary and what is not. To see my sin and to see what I need to cut out. I like this. I am enjoying this. I think I am becoming more patient. I feel I’m thinking clearer about a certain issue in my life right now. My ear is blocked and even though I can do something about it, it won’t heal straight away. I have no other choice but to wait and grin and bear it.
Maybe when we are sick or disappointed we should use it as a time to force us to stop and take time to hear (easier for some than others). There is nothing to do but be helpless and look to God and that is something I don’t do nearly as much as I should. And remember that after God imposes on us something that stops us in our tracks to remember that there are good things about that time.
“He leads me beside still waters” -He gives us time to take stock and be peaceful. To stop thinking about the next project, the next meeting, the next problem. He gives us perspective.
“He restores my soul”- He take something that has been bothering you, something that has been tempting you or eating at you some disappointment and says it’s OK. It’s not who you are. It doesn’t have to ruin or define you. It just gives you a new way of looking.
“You anoint my head with oil” – He gives you drops to put in your head to heal you, he brings you back to health after making you look to him with a new outlook.
The hard stuff is a “path to righteousness” that brings us to a new place. A better place where we are different people, more a real person than we were before. So if you are suffering right now remember there is a reason. There is a purpose. It’s not needless. It’s crucial. And with God we can be sure it will be good
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
all the days of my life,
and I shall dwell in the house of the LORD